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Post by firdtype on Jun 5, 2024 19:07:42 GMT
I want to know about every shizo or mystical things in your head i didnt experience anything cool in some time except classic three hour sleep when you get the wieldiest dreams or at least they feel like that I remember I used to close my eyes feeling as somebody watch my life as a tv show through them it wasnt a paranoia just a fact imbued myself Sometimes I drifted in my thoughts so deep and my imaginary conversations got so real I literally heard a short word or sound or phrase and scared myself haha I think its pretty possible right now but I put some podcast or music background and its hard to dream so deep again I was severally attacked by mosquitos writing this bye
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Post by speedos on Jun 5, 2024 19:29:13 GMT
i have experienced several very peculiar states of mind in this life. one time, i was asleep, and i went through some sort of rapid dream vortex, like i could feel myself spiritually fully in dream dimensions. and i had about 20 dreams in a minute. one dream was that a wild rabbit stole the word "word" from the dictionary, which caused all kinds of reality-breaking fuckery. i was also in a huge field sitting on a bench and staring at a beautiful tree. good mind. i was not able to achieve it again, but dreams are magical, i believe it will happen.
another state i got is after waking up early morning one day and slightly opening my eyes, i started "catching" sunlight in my eyes and could see the back side of my eyelids. i wanted to make it into a ritual but its hard to recreate. your mattress must have a good smell maybe.
one time in january 2021 i was suffering from severe smoke withdrawals and this opened a portal in my brain in which i was visited by Kubus himself and he told me of the truth regarding art. i saw the most clear vision of art possible. i made many games after this. this is interestingly similar to how kubus went to his world through tooth pain. maybe pain at the right time creates detachment that sends one to another dimension. but only at the right time.
i have also had many ventures into my home world, Lands of Games, mostly through good baths. baths are interesting. i sometimes cant get truly relaxed in a bath, but if i do, the mind can go to the most peculiar places. i visited the kubus world a couple times like this too. there are many swamps in Caramaska, it is nice.
then i had some mind states brought on by various substances, but those are too ethereal to describe here..
firdtype, maybe through your dreams, you made the sounds real for a second.. i know many secret things are possible with the power of the mind, but only if observed by those pure of heart. i made things move a couple times with the power of faith.
do you ever have dream and then wake up thinking it was real for a bit? Crow does that sometime, she has to check with me what actually happened. it shows true devotion to the spirit world i think.
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Post by speedos on Jun 5, 2024 19:30:30 GMT
me & crow were visited by Kubus quite recently.. had a good time. i must not say much, or the vampires might find out.
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Post by TheDoctorCrow on Jun 6, 2024 1:45:05 GMT
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Post by TheDoctorCrow on Jun 6, 2024 3:16:37 GMT
(edited out of embarrassment) (edited out of embarrassment)
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Post by TheDoctorCrow on Jun 6, 2024 3:17:04 GMT
These posts are making me crazy.
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Post by firdtype on Jun 6, 2024 4:44:57 GMT
i have experienced several very peculiar states of mind in this life. one time, i was asleep, and i went through some sort of rapid dream vortex, like i could feel myself spiritually fully in dream dimensions. and i had about 20 dreams in a minute. one dream was that a wild rabbit stole the word "word" from the dictionary, which caused all kinds of reality-breaking fuckery. i was also in a huge field sitting on a bench and staring at a beautiful tree. good mind. i was not able to achieve it again, but dreams are magical, i believe it will happen. another state i got is after waking up early morning one day and slightly opening my eyes, i started "catching" sunlight in my eyes and could see the back side of my eyelids. i wanted to make it into a ritual but its hard to recreate. your mattress must have a good smell maybe. one time in january 2021 i was suffering from severe smoke withdrawals and this opened a portal in my brain in which i was visited by Kubus himself and he told me of the truth regarding art. i saw the most clear vision of art possible. i made many games after this. this is interestingly similar to how kubus went to his world through tooth pain. maybe pain at the right time creates detachment that sends one to another dimension. but only at the right time. i have also had many ventures into my home world, Lands of Games, mostly through good baths. baths are interesting. i sometimes cant get truly relaxed in a bath, but if i do, the mind can go to the most peculiar places. i visited the kubus world a couple times like this too. there are many swamps in Caramaska, it is nice. then i had some mind states brought on by various substances, but those are too ethereal to describe here.. firdtype, maybe through your dreams, you made the sounds real for a second.. i know many secret things are possible with the power of the mind, but only if observed by those pure of heart. i made things move a couple times with the power of faith. do you ever have dream and then wake up thinking it was real for a bit? Crow does that sometime, she has to check with me what actually happened. it shows true devotion to the spirit world i think. I wont say my dreams ever came true but they created fake memory fr. I could remember something person said to me and in this exact moment I doubted its true and it vanished like a poltergeist who messes with my mind. So I doubt some moments from my past but its common thing. The most unusual thing happened to =me in childhood when I gained consciousness. I played in my room but suddenly some pictures flashed as a comic book pages through my eyes they were so fast I remember only one thing it was big warrior ogre which my brother was gifted and it was a toy, I recognized it instantly. I think I saw my whole life ahead but I am not sure there were too many men in latex so its could be some marvel hallucination. But I surprised to my self awareness and said to my self <My brother's name is -..., and this is my mom and dad> and went to another room. Also I have good intuition knowing what people going to say or do but it mostly accidental. As I said I rarely leave a moment to stay alone with myself and nothing interesting happens. About dreams looking too real, I think brain puts dreams recordings on the same shelf with memories, poor management of neuron secretary I would say. Its sounds kinda funny I will put it in my game once I will figure out how to code
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Post by firdtype on Jun 6, 2024 4:46:09 GMT
me & crow were visited by Kubus quite recently.. had a good time. i must not say much, or the vampires might find out. You three have deep connection you should ask him very important questions then
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Post by firdtype on Jun 6, 2024 4:55:10 GMT
Sometimes I see Kubus where I'm not supposed to see it. Like clouds where I see smiles in the sky. And sometimes it's like this: View AttachmentI also get him in recommendations with no reason sometimes and in places I can't stop watching this tumbnail. (I have a browser plugin that removes clickbait). View AttachmentI have a hard time looking people (and characters) in the eye (even if it's a photo), but this makes me calmer for some reason. Hm I can see it, it something in his expression you cant say what emotion it is tho its smile. Kubus expresses all feelings in one time. I dont look people in the eyes because I am not used too but I heard its healthy to keep eye contact. But when somebody look at me I feel they look inside my head and my face doesnt hide feelingsI want to hide from them. Its not a hard feeling but my self inspiring again. O, I remember in childhood I asked mom to take her fucking almost one feet doll from the closet because it stared at me (she thought its pretty and took it in her room hopefully). Modern dolls dont do the same their eyes are not real and painted over plastic
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Post by TheDoctorCrow on Jun 6, 2024 4:56:25 GMT
i have experienced several very peculiar states of mind in this life. one time, i was asleep, and i went through some sort of rapid dream vortex, like i could feel myself spiritually fully in dream dimensions. and i had about 20 dreams in a minute. one dream was that a wild rabbit stole the word "word" from the dictionary, which caused all kinds of reality-breaking fuckery. i was also in a huge field sitting on a bench and staring at a beautiful tree. good mind. i was not able to achieve it again, but dreams are magical, i believe it will happen. another state i got is after waking up early morning one day and slightly opening my eyes, i started "catching" sunlight in my eyes and could see the back side of my eyelids. i wanted to make it into a ritual but its hard to recreate. your mattress must have a good smell maybe. one time in january 2021 i was suffering from severe smoke withdrawals and this opened a portal in my brain in which i was visited by Kubus himself and he told me of the truth regarding art. i saw the most clear vision of art possible. i made many games after this. this is interestingly similar to how kubus went to his world through tooth pain. maybe pain at the right time creates detachment that sends one to another dimension. but only at the right time. i have also had many ventures into my home world, Lands of Games, mostly through good baths. baths are interesting. i sometimes cant get truly relaxed in a bath, but if i do, the mind can go to the most peculiar places. i visited the kubus world a couple times like this too. there are many swamps in Caramaska, it is nice. then i had some mind states brought on by various substances, but those are too ethereal to describe here.. firdtype, maybe through your dreams, you made the sounds real for a second.. i know many secret things are possible with the power of the mind, but only if observed by those pure of heart. i made things move a couple times with the power of faith. do you ever have dream and then wake up thinking it was real for a bit? Crow does that sometime, she has to check with me what actually happened. it shows true devotion to the spirit world i think. I wont say my dreams ever came true but they created fake memory fr. I could remember something person said to me and in this exact moment I doubted its true and it vanished like a poltergeist who messes with my mind. So I doubt some moments from my past but its common thing. The most unusual thing happened to =me in childhood when I gained consciousness. I played in my room but suddenly some pictures flashed as a comic book pages through my eyes they were so fast I remember only one thing it was big warrior ogre which my brother was gifted and it was a toy, I recognized it instantly. I think I saw my whole life ahead but I am not sure there were too many men in latex so its could be some marvel hallucination. But I surprised to my self awareness and said to my self <My brother's name is -..., and this is my mom and dad> and went to another room. Also I have good intuition knowing what people going to say or do but it mostly accidental. As I said I rarely leave a moment to stay alone with myself and nothing interesting happens. About dreams looking too real, I think brain puts dreams recordings on the same shelf with memories, poor management of neuron secretary I would say. Its sounds kinda funny I will put it in my game once I will figure out how to code Oh, you working on your game? What's is this?
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Post by TheDoctorCrow on Jun 6, 2024 4:58:20 GMT
me & crow were visited by Kubus quite recently.. had a good time. i must not say much, or the vampires might find out. You three have deep connection you should ask him very important questions then I once asked a question. И... my whole life has been symbolism.
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Post by firdtype on Jun 6, 2024 6:19:45 GMT
I wont say my dreams ever came true but they created fake memory fr. I could remember something person said to me and in this exact moment I doubted its true and it vanished like a poltergeist who messes with my mind. So I doubt some moments from my past but its common thing. The most unusual thing happened to =me in childhood when I gained consciousness. I played in my room but suddenly some pictures flashed as a comic book pages through my eyes they were so fast I remember only one thing it was big warrior ogre which my brother was gifted and it was a toy, I recognized it instantly. I think I saw my whole life ahead but I am not sure there were too many men in latex so its could be some marvel hallucination. But I surprised to my self awareness and said to my self <My brother's name is -..., and this is my mom and dad> and went to another room. Also I have good intuition knowing what people going to say or do but it mostly accidental. As I said I rarely leave a moment to stay alone with myself and nothing interesting happens. About dreams looking too real, I think brain puts dreams recordings on the same shelf with memories, poor management of neuron secretary I would say. Its sounds kinda funny I will put it in my game once I will figure out how to code Oh, you working on your game? What's is this? I want to express my world building theory on the example of human body. Plot kept changing as well characters but now at least I know what I am going to do instead of <just I want to do game> and my world view changed a lot as I found more connections and similarities in universe and organism. As a little part of it I think that every atom is separate universe and our universe is an atom of God's body, for long time I thought we are neuron but it doesnt matter because He can have very different anatomy from us. As a part of neuron theory I thought He keeps our world as a memory in cell and could vanish it instantly forgetting about this universe but in my game I want to explore whole body as it very interesting subject. Main characters will have main responsibilities but in the matter to complete game person should choose wrong path which is not in their code to do. I also wasnt certain how to put everything in game but when I found you and sunfish forum and Kubus I understood I need to start with smaller things smaller games but which contain the Lore. Images for example what I mean. I found very pleasant to my eyes runes which I have on different device so I put demon sigils here because they kinda close and I will use them
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Post by firdtype on Jun 6, 2024 6:41:32 GMT
You three have deep connection you should ask him very important questions then I once asked a question. И... my whole life has been symbolism. I love symbolism you are lucky
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Post by TheDoctorCrow on Jun 6, 2024 9:38:48 GMT
Oh, you working on your game? What's is this? I want to express my world building theory on the example of human body. Plot kept changing as well characters but now at least I know what I am going to do instead of <just I want to do game> and my world view changed a lot as I found more connections and similarities in universe and organism. As a little part of it I think that every atom is separate universe and our universe is an atom of God's body, for long time I thought we are neuron but it doesnt matter because He can have very different anatomy from us. As a part of neuron theory I thought He keeps our world as a memory in cell and could vanish it instantly forgetting about this universe but in my game I want to explore whole body as it very interesting subject. Main characters will have main responsibilities but in the matter to complete game person should choose wrong path which is not in their code to do. I also wasnt certain how to put everything in game but when I found you and sunfish forum and Kubus I understood I need to start with smaller things smaller games but which contain the Lore. Images for example what I mean. I found very pleasant to my eyes runes which I have on different device so I put demon sigils here because they kinda close and I will use them "As a little part of it I think that every atom is separate universe and our universe is an atom of God's body."
I had similar thoughts as how the structure of an atom is pretty similar compared to a galaxy and solar system. I like the idea of the human body. I didn't know you were from the Sunfish forum.
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Post by firdtype on Jun 6, 2024 10:20:04 GMT
I want to express my world building theory on the example of human body. Plot kept changing as well characters but now at least I know what I am going to do instead of <just I want to do game> and my world view changed a lot as I found more connections and similarities in universe and organism. As a little part of it I think that every atom is separate universe and our universe is an atom of God's body, for long time I thought we are neuron but it doesnt matter because He can have very different anatomy from us. As a part of neuron theory I thought He keeps our world as a memory in cell and could vanish it instantly forgetting about this universe but in my game I want to explore whole body as it very interesting subject. Main characters will have main responsibilities but in the matter to complete game person should choose wrong path which is not in their code to do. I also wasnt certain how to put everything in game but when I found you and sunfish forum and Kubus I understood I need to start with smaller things smaller games but which contain the Lore. Images for example what I mean. I found very pleasant to my eyes runes which I have on different device so I put demon sigils here because they kinda close and I will use them "As a little part of it I think that every atom is separate universe and our universe is an atom of God's body."
I had similar thoughts as how the structure of an atom is pretty similar compared to a galaxy and solar system. I like the idea of the human body. I didn't know you were from the Sunfish forum. I found rotsf by myself searching funny words on youtube and found it very interesting and it lead to the chain of saint channel glorious trainwrecks and here. It took me some months to get interested in this internet research but i like it here and people's lore. Tho wouldnt be possible if I didnt watch piss league walkthrough because its my main inspiration And yeah i think everything built by some semblance its obvious and LIKE to discover same patterns in different things. Everything is the same thing just different category or class thats why comparisons and allegories exist. Its still vague in my head but I just need more mind food to convert everything in game. Of course it wont be that hard I love simplicity but this whole concept would be hanging in the air of plot woah i am getting nerdy end of the message now
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